Recently, all the problems are keeping me were started arised in my stupid mind.Could I ..just maybe one time..take off my disguise mask and lay down the heavily weapons ...and become myself once time.I do promise, just once more, I will waken, realize my mind..and let my weakwilled fall far behind me?Exhausted ..Annoying...Am I verging on a breakdown..?I m afraid of facing such things happens..But when I tried to speak out..Felt like no one could hear me..Nobody real know me..have no one who I can reliance and trust at all..Have you ever felt so alone and nothing makes sense? Well that’s how I feel right now…I feel like I’m facing everything myself, with nothing but tears and a fake smile..
They said, death will be a great relief., no more interviews. Birth and death, we all move between these two unknowns.We have no choice?Precisely.what we have been possesed at this moment can be lose at anytime?Unexpected circumstances everyday happening..We lose things every day.Some are small like keys,or hp..many are much larger such like time, relationships, or even our close family or lover.Sadness and weakness always remain their important characters after all of these but after a while we just get used to it.It’s the way life is we tell ourselves and then we do our best with whatever we have left.Why do people have to lose things to find out what they really mean?Since.......Life must go on.isnt it?Things only shine at first, when times flow or else, it started fade away and eventually its gone..same to people, love and memory.Who could guranteed things will be forever?No one.
When I see you smile and know that it is not for me, that is when I will miss you the most.I miss you a little, I guess you could say, a little too much, a little too often, and a little more each day.I m sorry.U know what....When you are in love and you get hurt, it’s like a cut. it will heal, but there will always be a scar.this scar had followed me been a long time and still not dissappeared totally yet to me.Whether or not am I useless?I hate myself too!The reason that I have no capability to afford it again, therefore this scar's pain and hurt which his left keep reminded me never and ever falling and step in love with anyone including u.But I won't forget the one that I love, is U.I miss you when something good happens, because your the one I want to share it with. I miss you when something is troubling me, because your the one that understands me so well.You will always been blessed always full of wishes and happiness by me.i believe someday there'll be a girl.A kind, sweet and nice girl but not me, to be worth to deserve be your Mrs right, perfect match made in heaven.
My dearest man,true love doesn't have a happy ending, because true love never ends. Letting go is one way of saying I love u............................